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June 15 8yrs later!shit been 2 yrs already since i been here! well it toke that long but i finaly got my kenny! :) February 12 emotional wrecki cant deal with this bullshit anymore,
friends creep from da past, the x reapears but for no reason...and one luv wut to say bout him enh?????????
im still jus there for a good ride, practical only wen needed , but .......... u know wut i aint got fuk all interesting to say and i aint givin a shit bout this intertaining!!!!!! all or nothin!!!wow ,this week as ben a good example to the famous sayin its all or nothin!!!its been da week 2 old findings;3 people who i have been wonderin wut they were up to...wich ide pretty much givin up on the idea of finding them...........suddenly appear from no where..............
crazy yo!!!!!im happy but at the same time can stir up sum old shit dat shouldnt even be 2 out of 3 r linked to same old past history wit me...n wit each other and one can affect wut part of still my present.
c theres nothin 2 b complicated really but tell them that there the ones at one point that made up a big story that wasent even there in tha first place...aaaah boyz them and there vivid imagination!
or in sum cases there insecurities comes from wut they do wrong themselves.... January 15 words where i find myselfsomewhere i belong ; linkin park
(when this began),i had nothin to say
and i get lost in the nothingness inside me
(i was confused) and i let it all out to find
that im not the only person with these things in mind
(inside of me)
but all that they can see the words revealed
is the only real thing that ive got left to feel
(nothing to lose)
just stuck ,hollow and alone
and the fault is my own,
i wanna heal,i wanna feel what i thought was never real
i wanna let go of the pain ive felt so long
(erase all the pain till its gone)
i wanna heal,i wanna feel like im close to something real
i wanna find something ive wanted all along
somewhere i belong
and ive got nothin to say
i cant beleive i didnt fall right down on my face
(i was confused)
lookin everywhere only to find
that its not the the i had imagined it all in my mind
(so what am i )
what do i have but negativity
cuz i cant justify the way,everyone is looking at me
(nothing to lose)
nothing to gain nothing ,hallow and alone
and the fault is my own,
i will never know myself until i do this on my own
and i will never feel anything until my wounds are healed
i will never be anything till i break away from me
i will break away,ill find myself today.
this group(likin park) one day just fell in my years do to a friend ide ride with and shed blast this in her car
as stupid has it might sound to lots of you,there was a start to therapy,to facing,realising,admitting,and healing from the truth...i found myself in these words thinking i should have wrote this just like probably some of you have related to one or many songs b4 and more to come...but hey they have at least 5 where i related just on one album,anyways point to this is even tho these guys will never know this and the good its brought i thank them,and lets not 4get i might not be as close to her as i use to b,but i havent forgotten all the good moments,thanks Farah for havin me gettin to know likin park,givin me a little escape from all my rap....reggae and gettho music
thanx for lending me your c.d and thanx for replaying the songs over and over in the car just for me!!!!!!!
so if i write these words from there songs on my blog its to make aware that tho it might not be the style you listen to,even if it might just sound like noise to you,its worth hearing if not at least reading. January 01 LET IT GO,part of inspiring email i receivedLET IT GO!
when people can walk away from you ,let them walk
dont try to talk another person into staying with you
loving u,calling u,caring bout u,comin 2 c u,stayin attached 2 u,
i mean hang up tha phone........
people leave you because they are not joined 2 u,&if they r not joined 2 u ,u cant make them stay.
let them go,
dosent mean they r a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over.and u got 2 know when peoples part in your story is over so that u dont keep trying 2 raise the dead
youve got 2 know wen its dead
youve got 2 know wen its over
if you are holding on 2 something that dosent belong 2 u &was never intented 4 ur life,then u need 2 LET IT GO
if u r holding 2 past hurt & pains,let it go
if someone cant treat u right,luv u bak,& c ur worth;let it go
if someone angered u,let it go
if u r holding on 2 some thoughts of evil & revenge;let it go
if u r involved in a wrong relationship or addiction;let it go
if u have a bad attitude;let it go
if u r judging others 2 make yourself feel better;let it go
if u r struggling with the healing of a broken relationship ;let it go
if u keep tryin 2 help someone who wont even try 2 help themselves;let it go
if your feeling depressed & stressed;let it go
get right or get left,think about it,and then......
let it go
and another,da sweet side...makes u wonder????words of wisdomfrom kenny
oct,14,2005
read each carefully and think a second or 2
1.i love you not because of who you are,but because of who i am when im with you.
2.no man or women is worth your tears,and the one who is wont make you cry.
3.just because someone dosent love you the way you want them to,dosent meen they dont love you with all they have.
4.a true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and reaches your heart
5.the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you cant have them.
6. never frown,even wen you are sad,because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7.to the world you may be one person,but to one person you may be the world
8.dont waste your time on a man or women who isint willing to waste their time on you.
9.maybe god wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right ones so that wen we finaly meet the person,we will knowto be gratefull.
10.dont cry because it is over,smile because it happend.
11.theres always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more carefull about who you trust next time around
12.make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13.
dont try so hard ,the best things come when you least expect them to.
remember:whatever happens,happens for a reason!
and from here started my awakening!!!! so if you wonder today 1luv,now u know..........forever in my heart even tho apart..... bitter?sweet?to me
from kenny
mon,sept 12 2005
be a friend and just listen @ if i go to ottawa,you hate me,cause im in her arms,if i stay here she hates me and think im in your arms,but all i want is to be home and chill,go out if needed,if not do what i have to ,life is not getting me anywhere right now,so do i stay or do i go,but why cant i have a girl that is just right for me, someone with athletic body love to work out, have a job,sexy and appealing,dont care much of he or she say,just stay lovely all around,willing to go all the way with or without me,just being herself,kick back read a book or 2,and understand a man need is space too.
lets keep in mind diss homie cheats!!!!
any one would like to answer dat? anyone!!!
as for da girl who likes alote of dat stuff ...kenny as i read dis i think 2 things,or 3 : eh! hellllo! dumb ass!!!!
how selfish iz dat???? and wut make u desirve all dat,little selfish r we????
now why did i dig this up from da pass ,simple 2 remind me.......................to stay aware........to share,the bitter sweet
ahhh one luv,wut to do wit u????? December 30 from 1 perv 2 another,email sent 2 menov.22,05
fw by kenny,
(please forgive vulgur language and take this in light humor)
a hug leads to a kiss...a kiss leads to a finger...a finger leads to a hand...a hand leads to a lick...a lick leads to a suck...a suck leads to a fuck.so tell me how many people are you gonna hug after you heard this?
cuz sex iz like math...u add the bed..subtract the clothes...devide the legz...leave your solution...and pray you dont multiply!
yep dats my(or everybody'Z) kenny, wuts not 2 luv????
hope u cracked a smile....cuz in reality were all a bit twisted and those who arent are just in denyl.....;-) why do we settle 4 less?,DONT!!!this an email passed down to me wich i then fowarded,from sum it was not understood(hello kenny!!!duhhh!) dat explainz and confirms my point!!!!and from sum it was an apreciated reminder (luv ya nat,4 instance!got any weinners...flashback to first initial entry)well for those who like to think ,realize,apreciate and can enjoy da simplest things diss iz 4 u;
life only comes around once,make sure u spend it with the right person!"
find a guy who calls you beautiful insted of hot,
who calls back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
wait for the guy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
wait for the one who turns to his friends and say "thats her"
now has for my own personnal added imput, galz lets not get gready n selfish.....we gotta give a little 2...now if ya lucky 2 find one that will give u all that pleaze give da same in return,cherish him..............to all think u gotta give 2 receive............treat on has u wonna be treated.....cheezy yes it is..........but dats how 2 keep it at its best.............think about it!!!
December 05 12 dayz of X*x-mason da first day of x-mas my true luv gave to me;
A FINGER IN A P*SSY,
on da second day of x-mas my true luv licked on me;
2 TiTS HE LOVED
on da third day of x-mas my true luv gave to me;
3 FRENCH KISSES
on da fourth day of x-mas my true luv came in me;
4 ORGASMS,
on da 5th day of x-mas my true luv gave to me ;
5 C*CK RINGS,
on da 6th day of x-mass my true luv asked of me;
6 PuSSYS A LAYIN
on da 7th day of x-mas my true luv gave to me;
7 SP*RMS A SWIMMING
on da 8th day of x-mas my true luv shared with me;
8 MADES A C*MMIN
on da 9th day of x-mas my true luv gave to me; 9 PUSHES TO BE PUSHIN,
on da 10th day of x-mas my true luv showed to me;
10 MOUTHS DOIN DA PIPPIN,
on da 11th day of x-mass my true luv watched with me;
11 LADYS A STRIPPIN,
on da 12th day of x-mas my true luv came on me
12 SHOTS LORD HES C*MMIN ALL OVER ME!!!!
November 27 to my friends..by invitation,if u chose 2 visit :2 my friends ,dont judge me ,just love me, wut eva u read ;dont missunderstand me,dont hold this againts me ,learn to know me .....for i seek 2 hurt nobody, i only seek 2 b free ,2 b me, i love you all, but differently,so all da same just love me: 4 dats all i need......................................................
thanx!!!!  with dat said; i wish u G'nite! wet ones....hugz n'kisses! motion in da OCEAN......MOTION IN DA OCEAN..........................
AS I FIND MYSELF IN THE TUB FILLING,
LYING ON MY BACK
LEGS SPRED WIDE OPEN....
UNDER THE TAP WATER IS DRIPPIN
LET GO THE WATER FALL ON MY CLITORIS
MAY SHOWERS CUM FROM WITHIN,
IF YOU STAY LONGER AND MOTION WITH THE OCEAN YOU WILL GET THE GREATEST OF SENSATIONS,
MOANING AND SELF GRINDDING ADDED TO NIPPLE PINCHIN YOUVE BECOME ONE WITH THE WATER TO BE YOUR GREAT LOVER..JUST L;ET YOURSELF GO AND SEE WHAT YOU WANT TO FEEL AND BE..................
CLOSE YOUR EYES TO THE FEEL ........BITTING MY BOTTOM LIP WITH PASSSION,I FEEL YOU PUSH IN ME AND CUM ALL OVER ME, TO LEED BACK TO A PRAYER.I SEE THE BEACH ,THE WAVE ,THE OCEAN ,MOVING WITH MOTION..............I, IIIIIIIIIIIII ,IIIII CUM FOOOR YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU OOOOH MY GOD I AMMMMMMMMM ENNHHHH YEY RIGHT THERE JUST LIKE THAT BITE IT,PULL ON IT ,,,SUCK IT ...TASTE ME ,FEEL ME ,EEENNNHHHH CAN YOU FEEL MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ENH HENUNH AHHH YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS LOVE ME SEX ME FEEEELL ME...FILLL ME ,WANT ME ............................YES YES FUK YES..................................
just like a prayerMmmm aaahhhhh oooohOOOO heeeeyhaaa oh hummm
oaaaOOh God ! Oh GOD OhGOd!yes YEs Jesus
HUmmmmMMMMM GOOOOOOOODDDD!
aaaaaaaahhhh Yeyyyyyyyyeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyes enhhhh!
Oh my god!!!!!!!............................................................................... November 26 if u dont know medont get me wrong im aware of the image i might give and get from my subjects, but dont get confused my being opend and expressive on sex does not make me to b an easy hore...au contraire mes cherie,im jus cozy with the subject and i know wut i love but i dont love it with all... if that wuz the case this space would not b called one love,
dis is for you to enjoy,love and learn or get bored, so just do that and dont be so quick to judge...after all most of us love it..................so why not b open to talk about it....take it or leave it ..its pure intertainement!!!!!!! strike a pose to a musicalmissionary
doggy stlyle
ridding
77
69
blowjobs
cum shots
swallowing
spooning
oral,pics and porn
sideways
spanking
showers and cuming...
these are a few of my favorite things and the hills are alive with the sound of moaning.............
l.o.l and all the rest that no words can express...!
ooooooooooooh my god!!!!! i f*kd kenny!!!
help me i need to play!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cat storiesas of my friend @ fat cats world,i also decided to cum up with pussy stories....how pussy wants to play with the mouse in the hole..obviously as much i am a feline lover..ill be talking as u must have figured out of an other kind of pussy....the pussy that likes to play with the big DOGS...(l.o.l)
but as 4 today its sad to say dat this pussy is juicy but aint got a juicy storie dat is real to tell...actually pussy been lonely 4 about a month now since she decided to ignore her favorite sex dog kenny...yes boyz and girlz one month and 2 dayz of strike not one mouse in site to enter this hole....and this kitty is starting to get needy for play.................and take one big bite of the dogs BONE................head, head, head,iz all i got in my head
nice big clean juicy head..................mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...yep so dats wut i been up to, dirty thoughts ,dirty mouth,dirty dreamz and masterbation in between...u know wut i say,if u aint getting it,might az well talk about it!!!!!and trust me i been talkin alote!!!!hehe..........lonely without kennyz cock!!!!!
i leave ya knowing this kitty seekin some pray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MEOW November 19 quotesLove starts with a smile, grows with a kiss & ends with a tear.
 Dont cry over anyone who wont cry over you!
If love isnt a game why is there so many players?
 You can only go as far as you push!
 THE HARDEST THING TO DO IS WATCH THE ONE YOU LOVE ; LOVE SOMEBODY ELSE!
 WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN MAKE YOU STOP CRYING, IS THE PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY?
 NOBODY'S PERFECT UNTIL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM!
 EVERYTHING IS OKAY IN THE END, IF ITS NOT OKAY THEN ITS NOT THE END!
Think about it!!!!!! November 14 requested from a friendheres 4 u JUGGZ! but sadly aint inspired 2 say much tho since i been keepin it on da downlow, been quiet thats all..
stayin away from u know who so not much lust and passion goin on there...yey heres the first step to freedom,meening takin bak mine....as you notice i never mention that one luv of mines name..fear of ....
wut exactly....him bein mad at me cuz he has shit to hide and since the world is a small place he dont want to be known for doin wut he doin ...well you know wut its time i take my life bak make a stand and say im in controll.. so heres to you "KEN"...i set me free...................
to some of you might not understand..but this is grand ..wen u spend so many years caring for someone not apreciating it feelz good to decide to not be stupid anymore and take life back to live for me !!!! insted of waiting ......so if this is finaly it lets hope its not just a passing awakening like b4................................
so anyways my dear friend juggz wanted words from me .well im sorry luv 4 not brigging that much exitement but hey this is more then i thought ide write..............
other then that i been keepin up on my project as mentioned ME,im still not smoking to be 9 months first of next month...and the 20 pounds i had gained ive lost 15!!!and im gonna keep goin at it so for that i quite happy,so since im short on time here i will leave u on this and try to make it better for next time...hopefully some time soon i can bring on the visual October 08 wellwell.........
 .guess i can say i been neglecting this blog, figure u can only b bored of it if i had somethin so i been keepin it dead,that way u cant critisize it..........that could be it!but as mentioned b4 i dont always have access to pc
 ,but also the times i been here i didnt really  know wut to write, ive said wut the intention originaly of this blog wus and i feel it just gets to sappy after a while to focus on the love thing, the sex been quiet  lately...well i guess i just been figuring out: that to spend so much focus on just that one person is not wuts gonna help me out of wut ive been trying to get out of ..........that addiction to my one love that is! true i still feel the luv 4 him ,but im trying to find me again,basicly my time as been filled by work....im gettin my ass in gear trying to squeeze in some work out as much as i can so i can get mesexy self into a smaller,toned up sexier self ,for myself the way i liked /like myself to be..........its been 7 months since i quit smokin,cant take it 4 granted so i dont start again but i think its well under controll to be able to focus on the body,inside and out................then once im happy with myself all way through watch out boys!!!!!! the other reason why this blog isint quite wut i want it to be is i want mostly to add pics to it but also my talent in art...once im set up to show that off the creative will come back to life and all this shall become more interesting,now ill be goin back to my Bob Marley thats
 jammin. ..and on to do my thing.......1 luv!p.s. if this blog just aint for you..u can enjoy some great sarcastic,bitter,imaginative,humor @one of my friends space FAT CATS WORLD @ |
hope u enjoy always makes me crack a smile
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